Where I am today

Growth

Growth is the end result of a change. Today, I want to talk about growth in me personally.

Over the last 5 years, I have grown into a person of loving and believing in myself. At one time I had no confidence in who I was, where I was going, and allowed my life to be affected by the negativity that was surrounding me.

In my personal life, I did not demand the respect, or attention I deserved. I settled and made excuses for bad treatment. I covered up, hid my truth, cried, and, in the mist, I was suffering. I finally realized that I was losing myself. You see even though I suffered from low self-esteem and self-confidence, I was still losing the little parts I liked about myself. Then it hit me one day, I deserved to be treated with respect and attention. The disrespect did not come from name-calling or adultery but from lack of attention or acknowledging my feelings. I was tired of being with someone but feeling alone at the same time. Now that is when the ultimate growth happened, and the change began to happen. I went to counseling and started to value myself for the first time in my life. GROWTH came from all that happened in my past.

My career is another story, but it also had a diminishing role in my self-esteem and confidence. For most of my career, I worked in jobs that I did not like. There were many reasons, schedules, pay, the industry, and of course the boss or management. I realized that this behavior started when I received my first job. In my first job, they spelled my name wrong, and the address was incorrect on my check. My decision to quit that job change the trajectory of my life. I started to find something wrong with every job I had. It is funny that I am writing this because I never thought of it like that until now.

However, that last job I had, I stayed there for 10 years. I thought that I was going to end my career with that company. I was going to move into the Human Resources department and one day becomes the Human Resources manager. None of that happened. I remained in one position for 8 of the ten years and I blamed everyone I could for me not moving into HR. Then I realized that HR is not my calling and the reason that God allowed me to stay in that position for so long is to gain knowledge and help others that needed me.

When I received that answer, for the questions, Lord, you allowed me to get a Master Business Administration- Human Resources Management what is that you want me to do? When he gave me the answer to become a life coach. I then understood the Growth process I had been going through most of my adult life.

I say all this to say, the Growth starts when you are born, in your life Growth will have a more significant reason. So do not become overwhelmed, discourage or depress because of the growth process you are facing daily.

You are here for a reason, and it all works together for your good… Romans 8:28